More stoney thoughts that seemed profound at the time, but may not make a ton of sense in the morning hours.
Fearing the consequences of getting what we want.
Fearing the return of natural balance – if I achieve something great, I am subjected to the natural consequence of that greatness – kind of like yin and yang. The payment, we perceive as equally great. To achieve a million dollars, the consequence would be equal to that…we perceive a million dollars as a lot of money, so our payment must be equally as expensive.
I believe that you will only manifest what makes you happy…truly happy. You cannot fear your desires for the fear of consequence. An honest desire will have no consequence. No matter what you go through achieving it or keeping it, the rewards are always better than the alternatives.
If we haven’t achieved what we desire, we must look at what thoughts are blocking us…what beliefs are preventing our desires from presenting themselves.
You simply have to believe in your desires. It doesn’t matter what you call it…if you believe you will do something, you will. If you believe your keys will show up, they will. You don’t have to understand why or how…you just know it…deeply.
I really don’t want a million dollars. That really doesn’t matter to me…but what a million dollars will bring me is exactly what I want – peace of mind…security. I want to live life calmly, happily, having fun and experiencing new people and new things. I want to experience love and peace of mind…having complete health and success. These are the only things of consequence money can bring.
I’m back to thinking about the collective conscious. If this is all truly a hologram of a greater consciousness’ experience…then everything that everyone else knows is what we know. There is no separation of the “self” only one collective experience. The things happening around the world are all part of our own personal experience…it is our experience. Perhaps events are presented to us…on the news, etc…for us to share the experience of others…because those “others” are actually us.
Which leads me to think that if this is an experience of “something” else, then doesn’t it stand to reason that we can communicate back to that consciousness exactly what we want to experience in our perceived personal reality?
If that’s the case, then when things don’t go “our way” it’s not to say they won’t…it just means it’s not time for those things to happen. They will come in time…but we must understand that we have other things to accomplish before those things can come into our reality.
If this is what we believe, then we must trust in the perfection of our creation and know that the outcomes will be perfect…in the right time.
I keep forgetting to write this down…
The other night I was laying down and had a flashback to my childhood. I was probably around 4 years old, playing in my parents’ house with a set of small plastic fruits. In that moment, I remember shouting “I NEVER get what I want!” Obviously, I was a child and there had to be boundaries…but the theme carried throughout my adolescence and early adulthood.
My parents were older when I came along…my dad being of the Great Depression Generation, he said “no” a lot. I learned to appreciate the little things, but came to think that everything else was just too much to ask for…and to be satisfied with what I had. And again, that’s not all bad. What’s bad is that being raised like this lets you strive for exactly what you’ve always gotten…in my case, I always got “just enough.”
Changing your programming isn’t easy…I still get distracted, even a little lost, along the way…but it’s so worth it. Never ever give up on improving yourself. You’re worth it.
I “scribbled” these thoughts down last night while stoned…they made so much more sense in my head.
If you think about something small, like a piece of fruit you can easily make it appear in your life. If you want to own a dog, you can easily make that happen.
We manifest all the time. It’s just that we perceive reality as having to go get something. In manifesting things we don’t know how to get, it’s a bigger leap of faith because we remove our physical abilities from the equation. We can no longer go out and purchase our manifestation. We’ve been taught that everything has a price.
If we want something small we can go get it. If we want something big our indoctrination doesn’t allow us to understand how to get it…or where to find it…because we can’t necessarily buy it.
I continue my journey inward in an attempt to understand how my thoughts play out in my everyday life. I made an observation this afternoon that seemed most profound, well, profound at least to me. Everyone seems to function in a constant reactive state. Reacting to everyone and everything around them, with little or no reflection on themselves and how they impact their environment. There truly is a liberation in realizing that everything is coming from within…but there is also a responsibility in that liberation.
So…awhile ago I watched a documentary narrated by Joe Rogan on Netflix called “DMT – The Spirit Molecule,” and was fascinated by it. I’ve watched it over and over and just can’t get enough of the thought of consciousness, its impact on our lives and how so many of us walk around blindly, paying no attention to what a miracle consciousness actually is.
Apparently all this thought about consciousness sunk into my subconscious and I awoke one morning with the idea for a story. So, I wrote it. It’s a bit romantic and a bit erotic. Apparently the DMT documentary was the spark to move forward from within my own consciousness.
I published the short story on Amazon and am giving it away for free today. Yes…it’s a bit of an erotic story, but it’s really all about one woman’s journey to explore herself, challenge her beliefs, and inevitably find herself. If you’re interested, you can find it here – https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/s/ref=is_s?k=tearing+the+fabric+of+time
If this life is simply a hologram, a projection of our thoughts, I think we can do better.
“I have realized that the past and future are real illusions, that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is.”—Alan Watts
The day will unfold as it will, in perfect rhythm. Your intentions are known. Opportunities to have the things you need and want will present themselves. For just this one day, be the observer. Allow yourself to believe that your desires will be fulfilled and your problems solved, without overthinking every detail. Situations will seemingly handle themselves. By observing, you have the eyes to see your dreams becoming reality. Some call it patience, just for today, let’s call it faith.
The reason things don’t work is because we use our consciousness to manipulate situations. But it’s really no wonder that that doesn’t work. There’s just too much noise, too much interference. If we could let go and trust that our needs and wants are absolutely perfect and just let them play out as they shall, and know that you are headed for the destination you desire, life will be smooth, happy, and desires will be realized sooner than if we try to interfere with the divinity within us, which is creating exactly what we want.