Beautifully Flawed

I’m here to tell you it’s OK. It’s OK to want a change, it’s OK to not want what you have…to want something different, something more. Things change, life changes. You are not the same person you were yesterday…you are not the person you will be tomorrow. 

I want you to know that I believe in you, I accept you for who you are…no matter how flawed you see yourself. I do not see flaws, I see a person who is growing. 

Do not give into social pressures to be what other want you to be. Do not be fooled by false concern…there are agendas everywhere and none of them are your own. People say they want the best for you, which I’m not saying isn’t true, but often times they really don’t want you to do something that will negatively impact them. We are all self-serving on some level. 

The bleakest times are often the times when a major shift is about to occur. It is acceptance of the self that creates major change. Suffering is only caused when you see what you want but fear seizing it because of the judgement of others. It’s OK to break away from mainstream thought…it isn’t mindful of the individual anyway. I have empathy for those who conform and never see that they are something much more than society has dictated. It is our duty to forgive ourselves for not wanting what society says we should, it is our duty to rebel and have our own thoughts and dreams, and it is our duty to not apologize for them. 

There truly is no failure, if you could only see life through the eyes of truth that await opening within each of us. Stop apologizing and start forgiving. Once you forgive yourself for not living up to the standards of others, you can start rewarding yourself for adhering to your own. 

I’ve heard you say, “I want you to do whatever it is you want to do.” Why can we say that to others and not say it to ourselves? Perhaps it is our way of saying what we want to say to ourselves, but we allow guilt to rule our path – steal from us our freedoms. We are free. Yes, responsibilities matter, but sacrificing ourselves in the course of tending to our responsibilities is not noble…it is feeding the trickery which we have been taught. 

So, I’m here to tell you that it’s OK. You are not wrong…you are beautifully flawed…like a scared tree that has continued to grow to new heights…it is perfect in its imperfections…and so are you. Please stop apologizing for your flaws…go and be beautifully flawed. Those around you will learn from you…see your flaws and see the beauty in them. Forgive yourself one last time and then leave behind your burdens. Move forward, grow, experience, love, and wander. I’ll be by your side. 

The Individual 

I am not unique. I am simply being myself…which is inherently original…therefore deemed “unique.” I’m not going out of my way to look or act like anyone else. Instead, I share myself, which is simply letting people know who I truly am. I have no fear of not fitting in, I have no fear of being an individual. 

Luna Rossa

I wrote this awhile ago and stumbled across it today. It really captures where I was at the time…lonely, yearning, and a bit brokenhearted. 

The moon glowed red tonight. The only thing missing was the familiar beat that reminds her she is alive. 

Torn and buried emotions defiantly beat deep below the surface. 

An attempt to hide. No…an attempt to deny her true feelings for the sake of a tattered soul. 

She is reminded of you, yet she will not yearn. 

The burial beneath the shadow is her only reprieve. 

Looming is the resurrection of the light, readying to expose her once again. 

You’d Better Believe It

I wrote this late last night…I think it makes sense…although my examples could be better…but you get the picture. 

I’ve heard one too many times that “thoughts are energy.” It’s true…but I’m sick of hearing it. Here’s the simplest way to make things happen in your life – know what you want. Know it. I’ll say it again, know it. 

Know it with the conviction that you have when you decide on what you want for lunch. Nothing will stop you from getting it…because you won’t stop until you do. Plans might change for a day or so…but you will eat where and what you want. 

Here’s another example, I want to plant a tree in my yard. I’ll make it happen. I might have to save the money to buy the tree, dig the hole, etc. I want it…so I’m gonna make it happen. 

Then, all of a sudden, things start to happen…trees might go on sale, a friend may call and ask to goto lunch, all kinds of things start to fall into place. It simply starts with that kind of belief. 

Sure, things you don’t want to happen do indeed happen. However, many of those things end up being you observing them happen…but you still have a choice whether or not it is something you truly don’t want. You learn from those events…and you recover. 

It’s the feeling of “failure is NOT an option.”

Awakening

Over the past few weeks, I’ve found myself saying, “I don’t know what to do,” more times than I could count. So I waited, it was all I could do. I waited for time and circumstance to present me with a path. Not only was I given a path, I was given peace for the first time in a very long time…maybe the first true peace I’ve ever known. 

So, for you my lovelies, when you think you don’t know what to do, just wait. The lessons of today become the knowledge of your tomorrow. Combine those moments, and things become clear. Let go…just a little. Find your freedom and know that you are working toward an awakening. 

You meet your destiny on the road you take to avoid it.

Carl Gustav Jung

A Meditative Awakening

I had an experience during last night’s meditation that is a bit hard to capture in words, so please bear with me. 

You know how all the “experts” say that in order to manifest something in your life you have to truly believe it? You can’t just want it…you have to know it…trust it. I have struggled with this for years. I know what I need and I know what I want. I just couldn’t really make it happen. Then last night I realized that in order  for the Law of Attraction…or whatever you want to call it…to work, you have to first truly believe in it…believe in that Law, believe it exists. I realized that I’ve spent many years wanting to believe in it…but never truly believing in the faith I claimed to have. That all changed last night. 

Last night during my meditation I detached from my physical body and somehow saw my entire life, somehow I saw reality in a different way, and I felt what it was like to actually trust something other than my conscious mind. It gave me an overwhelming feeling of peace. I knew myself…I knew the power of my mind…and I, for the first time in my life, believed in my faith. I won’t deny that experiencing the true power of my mind was scary. It was overwhelming. Yet, even through all the fear, I knew that what I had to offer was overwhelmingly good and it was my duty to go forward and trust that everything I desire will become a reality in this experience I call life. 

In order to find yourself you must completely let go of everything you think you are and allow yourself to fall. I haven’t been able to do this from a conscious state, so meditation as been my tool. I promise you, you will not be destroyed, but you will be reborn.