A Meditative Awakening

I had an experience during last night’s meditation that is a bit hard to capture in words, so please bear with me. 

You know how all the “experts” say that in order to manifest something in your life you have to truly believe it? You can’t just want it…you have to know it…trust it. I have struggled with this for years. I know what I need and I know what I want. I just couldn’t really make it happen. Then last night I realized that in order  for the Law of Attraction…or whatever you want to call it…to work, you have to first truly believe in it…believe in that Law, believe it exists. I realized that I’ve spent many years wanting to believe in it…but never truly believing in the faith I claimed to have. That all changed last night. 

Last night during my meditation I detached from my physical body and somehow saw my entire life, somehow I saw reality in a different way, and I felt what it was like to actually trust something other than my conscious mind. It gave me an overwhelming feeling of peace. I knew myself…I knew the power of my mind…and I, for the first time in my life, believed in my faith. I won’t deny that experiencing the true power of my mind was scary. It was overwhelming. Yet, even through all the fear, I knew that what I had to offer was overwhelmingly good and it was my duty to go forward and trust that everything I desire will become a reality in this experience I call life. 

In order to find yourself you must completely let go of everything you think you are and allow yourself to fall. I haven’t been able to do this from a conscious state, so meditation as been my tool. I promise you, you will not be destroyed, but you will be reborn. 


When I first started on this journey “inward” I was pretty typical. Constantly reacting to my outside influences and situations. The pivotal moment in my life came when I took a trip to my ex’s dad’s house. They lived a unique lifestyle…very in the moment, very free. 

There I was, in my late twenties never having experienced truly being accepted. I was always living up to someone else’s standards and ideas of what was right. During the week I spent in their home I felt truly accepted…even when we differed in opinion on various topics. From that time on, I began to accept myself as I was. I accepted my alternative ideas, my explorative thoughts, my seemingly unpopular views on social stigmas, you name it. That was the key – acceptance. Once I started accepting myself, it mattered less and less what others thought. My peers expected me to be like them…which I basically saw as “judgmental.” I knew that I was a good person, although some would question my new journey…labeling it as “weird.”

Even now, I find great pleasure in accepting myself and others for who they are. Not saying I like everything I see in others, but I no longer wish to change anyone…I simply accept them and if they don’t fit into my life, I move on. There’s a peace in that. 

Love yourself, accept others as they are. Don’t waste your time with judgement, for there is no such thing. This life is truly about your perceptions…mostly about yourself. 


If life truly happens our minds, it must be true that if we truly want to have the things we desire, we have to believe those desires are exactly what we want, that they’re right for us…if we truly believe that they are absolutely right, our hearts will allow our eyes to see the spectrum of color where our desires await.