This is what I love about using marijuana before meditation…amazing, random thoughts pop into my head.
Well, another morning’s wake and bake has led to a bit of inspiration. Let’s see how this comes out.
The other day, when I came up with the whole “Writer’s Unlock” idea…I was having a conversation with myself. It was remarkable…it was me, only it didn’t seem like it was me. I was so focused on the conversation, those rude, random thoughts couldn’t interrupt. This morning, though, I could feel the conversation brewing in my mind, but those pushy thoughts were just too loud. A bit frustrated, I decided to try and briefly meditate. I turned my focus from my thoughts to my breath…which usually results in my hyper-analyzing my breathing and freaks me out. Fortunately, not this time. I just focused on the result of my breathing – my stomach rising and falling, the cool feeling in my nostrils as the air went in, the warmer feeling as the air went out. I focused on the results not the actual action. That’s when it hit me –
Unlocking the brain is more about meditation, silencing the surrounding stimuli, to allow your mind to wander and introduce new thoughts which will guide you. It introduces you to your subconscious, the side of you you only meet in your dreams.
There really isn’t a better combination than meditation & marijuana…actually, it’s the other way around. Anyway, I got to thinking about just how wonderful life would be if we could walk outside and love Nature so much that we nurtured and cared for her as much as we care for ourselves and our families. We would protect her and the love between us would go on forever. Then I wrote the following –
While meditating, I found myself saying “I wish I was who I am today back in high school.” Then it hit me, why? Why isn’t it ok to be this person today…I love that I can appreciate myself today…my 17 year old self would never have appreciated this type of experience, knowledge, and growth. Why do so many of us want to take our knowledge back in time instead of applying it to our future? Do we think we can undo some great damage…make better choices? You know as well as I do that we needed to make those choices and experience the resulting damages to become this greater version of ourselves. If we were this amazing person all those years ago, we would make other bad decisions and suffer, perhaps, greater damages. Choices, good and bad, helped mold the person we now know.
Although, it really is nice to realize that we apparently love this version of ourselves so much, we wish we were always like this.
I had an experience during last night’s meditation that is a bit hard to capture in words, so please bear with me.
You know how all the “experts” say that in order to manifest something in your life you have to truly believe it? You can’t just want it…you have to know it…trust it. I have struggled with this for years. I know what I need and I know what I want. I just couldn’t really make it happen. Then last night I realized that in order for the Law of Attraction…or whatever you want to call it…to work, you have to first truly believe in it…believe in that Law, believe it exists. I realized that I’ve spent many years wanting to believe in it…but never truly believing in the faith I claimed to have. That all changed last night.
Last night during my meditation I detached from my physical body and somehow saw my entire life, somehow I saw reality in a different way, and I felt what it was like to actually trust something other than my conscious mind. It gave me an overwhelming feeling of peace. I knew myself…I knew the power of my mind…and I, for the first time in my life, believed in my faith. I won’t deny that experiencing the true power of my mind was scary. It was overwhelming. Yet, even through all the fear, I knew that what I had to offer was overwhelmingly good and it was my duty to go forward and trust that everything I desire will become a reality in this experience I call life.
In order to find yourself you must completely let go of everything you think you are and allow yourself to fall. I haven’t been able to do this from a conscious state, so meditation as been my tool. I promise you, you will not be destroyed, but you will be reborn.